Watch Me Loose It

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Quick Update

Apologies up front: This will NOT be your run of the mill, chipper, the world smells like roses blog post from me.

This past week has totally sucked for me. Not as far as diet and weight loss, but just in general. It started last Friday with a trip to the DR's office for David. He has been having some pain in his left side again, same exact pain, same exact place. We know EXACTLY what it is before we even make the appointment. So we get to the office and the first thing the DR say's is...Oh no, please not again. Yeah our feelings exactly buddy.

We talk and it is decided that this time they will go in and remove a portion of his bowel. They will manage his pain over the weekend and see him to admit him on Monday and schedule surgery for Tuesday.

The right angle area is where he keeps producing scar tissue. It's been 7 months since his last surgery. It was 6 months before that one and 8 months before that one. And a little 2 years since the first one. They can not tell what is causing the tissue to form, and why so rapid. But it attaches to his bowel and grows over it and basically pinches it off. So that nothing can pass. That makes him feel full. Kinda like a barbaric lap band if you will.

If he forces himself to eat it causes suck bad cramps because he can feel the his body trying to break down the food so that it can pass. So he ends up not eating. Then starts to lose weight, and eventual dehydrate. That's where we ended up Monday. In the office he was so severely dehydrated that his legs had started to cramp, and his lips were all dried up. My poor baby. I can not tell you how bad it hurts me when he is sick and hurting. It breaks my heart.

So we were in the DR's office all of 5 mins and he sends us to the hospital to be admitted ASAP. The plans were to rehydrate him and 'clean' him out to get him to feeling some what better. The DR said that being home for Thanksgiving would be a great moral boost for him. And that the surgeon that would assist would not be able to get there until NEXT Monday.

Last night was a rough night. The stuff they give him to 'clean' him out makes him very sick to his stomach. He said his legs are not cramping any more thanks to the IV but now they are sore. I came to work, because I need to save my vacation time for when the actually has the surgery next week. We are waiting to hear from the DR today so see if he can be sent home today or tomorrow for the holidays.

So where does that put me? Stressed out beyond anything. We are still planning on having Thanksgiving at the house. Everyone should be here for Wednesday. David is acutally looking forward to it. He can relax in his recliner and everyone can visit him.

I wasn't able to get to the gym yesterday. So I took the stairs at the hospital in its place. I think I almost died some where around the 4th floor. I had NO idea stairs would KILL me like that. Even though I have been working out 5 days a week for 3 months, I wanted to die. I guess it was better than nothing, but tonight I will hit the gym. I need to feel like I have control of SOMETHING.

I weighed this morning, it said 295.1 I think this is my lowest to date. I need to go back and check. I am not calling it official until I am back working with Justin. Something about being on paper makes it more real for me. My clothes are feeling great tho. And I finally got my smaller uniform shirts in. I am looking forward to putting it on and seeing how it feels.

I will keep you all posted on how things progress. This should be an interesting Turkey Day to say the least!

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Do You See What I See?

As promised. Updated photos. For the first time I think I may be at a loss for words.

Winner! Winner! Chicken Dinner!

First things first here. Thanks to everyone who entered my first blog give away. Thanks to all THREE of you! HA HA HA HA. Since it was my first one, and you all don't reallllllllllly know me from Adam. I have decided to award all of you with a prize.

Please forgive these crappy photos, they were taken with my phone in a hurry! Here are all three of the names that are being entered.

Here I have them all folded up and mixed up.

And here is the winner!! Congrats Kati. I will be sending you out a box of my yummy new favorite tea, and a variety pack so you can try all the other flavors too. I know you are going to LURVE it just like I do.

Trish and Jenn (I hope that was your name). You both will be getting a variety pack too. So now everyone is a winner! Girls please email me with your mailing addresses so that I can get your goodies in the mail!

Well I have been waiting to share this until I was reallllllllllly sure it wasn't a dream. Today (well actually a day last week) I drove right into Twotterville. This is it boys and girls, this is where I was before I let life get in the way of my dreams. From this day forward, it's all brand new. You know it its a hell of a lot easier to loose weight the first time, instead of the second (or third or fourth).
Today I feel totally renewed. Today I feel like it's finally the first day of the rest of my life instead of being stuck in some bad movie like Bill Murray in Groundhogs Day. Today I will watch what I eat a little better. Today I will push myself a little harder at the gym. Today I will start planning for the rest of my life. Today is a good day folks.

Guess what? I was tagged again! This time by Kati over at
The Great Balancing Act of a 24 year old! You should go check out her blog, she is super cute and a southern gal like myself!
Okay here are my 4 questions:
1.What is the happiest moment of your life?

Oh geeze...I have had so many...marring my best friend, the birth of my children, taking our first family vacation last year. Seeing my kids face, when we pulled up at the cruise terminal was amazing. We made so many memories on that trip. So yeah I am gonna go with that one.

2.Who is your favorite television character of all time?

Another stumper...I think I am going to have to say Richard Castle from the show Castle. I love his imagination and I love the chemistry between Becket and him. I do not know that I would like them to every hook up tho. I love them just the way they are.

3.What is your favorite bumber sticker (or funny/interesting quote/saying)?

Lord if you can't make me skinny, please make all my friends fat. (not realllllllllllll fat, just a little fat)
4.What are three things you are really good at?

Making people laugh(seriously...I aced this test)

Being a friend (I am loyal till death)(not that, that has acutally happened or anything..because then that would NOT make me a good friend)

Art Journaling (at least I like to think I am)

Okay now I am supposed to tag 4 more folks. Here is who I am picking this time. Mandy is brand new to blogging and could use some bloggy love so I am tagging her first.

And here are your questions:

1. If you were a color what would it be and why?

2. If you had one superpower what would it be?

3. What is one thing you can't wait to do when you reach your final goal?
4. What are you bringing to Thanksgiving dinner?
All you have to do is copy and past these questions on your blog with your answers. Then find other bloggers to tag, and ask your own 4 questions.

I can't wait to see what you gals have to say! Tonight I plan on taking updated progress photos. I am excited but worried that I won't see as much difference as last time. We shall see.

Friday, November 12, 2010

Shake what Your Moma Gave Ya!

Wow, it's already Friday where the heck did the week go?! It has been one busy week for me for some reason. Or I am just getting old and it just FEELS like it.

Tuesday Anna, Kathy and I took a Shake and Shimey class at Anytime. I don't know if I have mentioned it before (HA), but I love my gym. There is just ONE thing I wish they had, those kettle ball thingy's.

They may actually HAVE them, but I have yet to find them. I may have to just buy one and use it at home. Anyways back to the class thingy. I know I have mentioned the little kiosk that it outside the yoga room, that houses all sorts of work out videos, you just pick on and the screen drops down. We did kickboxing last week. This week we did a Shimey and Shake or something like that. It was an hour class, and it was supposed to be kinda like Zumba. It was fun AND funny. Funny because I am the whitest white girl alive! Seriously! I can barley tap my foot to a beat. Its horrible. Funny because the lady they had on the video looked like a yoga love child! It was fun because we were laughing and cutting up and making fun of the instructor and looking like FOOLS! The music SUCKED it didn't make me want to move. It kinda sounded like Indian belly dance music. I think if the music had been better, I would have tried a little harder to shimmy my hips.

All in all it wasn't too bad. 52 minutes. 946 calories burned. Plus, HUGE accomplishment for me, I made it all the way through the whole hour class! Next week we will try the Step and Stomp class. I hope the music is better.

Wednesday I took the night off front he gym instead of my normal Thursday, since Micheal had surgery Thursday. He had his tonsils and adnoids taken out. He is doing great. Sleeping it off, waking up long enough to slurp some yogurt tubes (those things are gross looking), and sip some of that Campbell's soup at hand. I told him I would make him mashed potatoes for dinner tonight. Kayla is at home today taking good care of him. (or at least that is the plan).

Maddie had spa day Wednesday too. Spa day-AKA going to the vet to get clipped and dipped. She is not a real big fan of spa day *gasp* I know right! So she was a little shaggy.

Here is her before photo.

And here is she afterwards. She doesn't look like the same dog. And she feels like velvet!

After we came home from the hospital yesterday I had a craving for roasted veggies, well actual I had a craving for anything I could eat in massive quantities. I was hungry as a hostage! I figured I could nibble on the veggies all day and that wouldn't be too bad.

I had tons of other veggies I wanted to add in here, but I ran outta room and these looked too pretty together. I have mushrooms, Brussel sprouts, garlic cloves and tiny read potatoes. These potatoes are so stinkin' cute. They are about the size of a pearl onion. They are so tiny and bite size, I couldn't help but to grab them up at the grocery store. I drizzled a little bit of olive oil over the mixture.

Then I sprinkled this alllll over. And tosses the veggies around. This is the first time I have used Mrs. Dash and let me tell you...DANG that stuff is yummy! And what I loved about it was NO salt!! I just added a sprinkle of sea salt when it was done and it was perfect!

I roasted them for about an hour and 45 minutes. I wanted to make sure those garlic cloves were done. Oh the aroma!!!! It was Divine! I can hardly wait till lunch to munch these babies again. I also bought fresh asparagus and snap beans, I plan on roasted those tonight! I bet they will be good too. I wish it didn't take so long to do them, but once you taste them it so so so so worth it.

After all that cooking I headed to the gym. I was a little BLAH last night. I couldn't find my groove, like I had. I think it's because at the time I go there is NOTHING on TV! LOL I managed 40 mines on the dreadmill, I don't know how far it was because like a dummy I pressed the clear button before I even checked! DUH! I worked the ab machine for a bit and then ended with 10 minutes on the elliptical. I would have went longer but I needed to get back to the drug store to pick up Micheal's meds.

58 minutes: 894 calories. And I had to work for those! UGGG. Hopefully tonight its not as bad.

Oh I almost forgot! Look how stinkin' freakin' cute this jacket it! I got it yesterday at Cato's! Normally I steer clear of Cato's there clothes are cute, but NEVER on me. I have always thought there shirts are made too short. They don't cover enough of my 'apron'. Well since I have less of an apron that I did before, I just ran in to look around for shits n giggles. Well to my surprise I tried on a few things and I didn't HATE the way they looked. I ended up with two new shirts and this super cute jacket! Saturday I am going shopping with my girls, I sure hope its cold so I can wear it! It makes me smile looking at it.
Don't forget you have until 5:oo today to enter my first blog give away. Click here and tell me what is the newest, can't live without it, food or product that you are using.

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

Sometimes I even surprise MYSELF

It is astronomical the things that I have learned in the past 6 months. Not only about getting healthy, but about myself as well.

I have learned that even when I think I can't....I CAN!

I have learned that even when I don't want to....I WILL!

I have learned that even when I think I will fail...I WON'T.

Last week was my son Micheal's 14th Birthday. Every year we let the kids pick where they want to eat dinner, and everyone is invited to tag along, dutch of course. This year Micheal wanted to go back to Biloxi and dine on those yummy crabs that we enjoyed a few months back. So we all piled up and headed that way.

Now normally at a buffet, it's balls to the wall, no holds bar lemmeeatasmuchasIcanbecauseIpaidforit. Over the course of these past few months, I have totally changed my out look on buffets. Yes, I paid for it, But I am learning it doesn't PAY for me to eat at them...I just don't eat enough.

Anways, after we got there everyone headed up to fix there plates, and I usually go last. I stay at the table with purses and make sure everyone gets their drinks and stuff. So when It was my turn I came back and sat down. It didn't even dawn on me what I had on my plate, until some one said, 'We all know who is healthy at this table'.

Well imagine my surprise when I look up and everyone is looking at me! That's when I really noticed what I had on my plate, steamed cabbage, a broccoli stir fry, some grilled shrimp, and a beautiful squash melody. And it wasn't piled high the the ceiling either. Just a taste of each thing. It wasn't that I was guilted into making my plate this way, for fear that I knew everyone would be watching. It was just NATURAL.
Yeah I know! I am still dumbfounded! I did allow myself dessert because I wanted it. I came back with a dessert plate (Normally I would use a dinner plate and try one of everything). I came back to the table with 4 different desserts. First was a half of what looked like a praline (its sugar and pecans for you non southern folks out there). I ate that. It was quite tasty. The second was a brownie, took one bite and it wasn't very good. Third was a bite size pecan pie. The shell was really hard and I couldn't bite into. So that went to waste. Lastly was another pecan bar looking thingy. I picked all the big pecans off the top and the rest, well you get the picture. And you know what? That's all I wanted. I wasn't even tempted to dive in head first into the chocolate fountain that I could see from our table. (well I was..but not for the reason you think).
After dinner was over I felt amazing! I was fully satisfied and not over stuffed. The way NORMAL people feel after a meal. Now there is a scary thought...ME normal!

Of course I had to snap some pics in front of the the very pretty fall decor of the casino. And what I like about this pic the most, it doesn't look like I am big enough to eat him anymore! Of course his eyes are closed. !#$%&* his eyes are ALWAYS closed in good photos!
Yesterday started my 3 week of working this thing out on my own. I think I have come a long way. I used to really not want to go to the gym, to the point where I pretty much didn't go. Or I would go, and not give it my all. Which is almost as bad as not going to be really honest. Now, most of the time I DO want to go. Well let me rephrases that, I don't reallllllllllllly want to. But I do anyways. I know how many calories I want to burn and I get my ass in there and DO it.
Last night was the same thing. I didn't really want to go, but I went of course. I am enjoying the dreadmill once again. I have pushed past being in my head for the most part. The TV really has helped me. I am now working on my stride and pace. Yesterday I did not lower the pace under 3.0 mph. I know that isn't very fast for YOU, but for me its a hell of a lot faster than I normally walk.

I walked for 41 minutes for a total of 2 miles. I had a good pace and I sprinted 4 times to speed up my heart rate. I have noticed that my sprints are getting faster too. I am now sprinting at 5.2 to 5.4 mph for 60 to 90 seconds. If I could figure out the breathing part, I could go for a little longer I just know it.

After that I moved to the elliptical machine. This machine has been taunting me since I joined the gym. I see all these girls going to town, including my friend Anna, and it makes me so jealous! I have tried it in the past and was only to squeeze out about 3 minutes (and even at 3 minutes I might be fluffing the store a bit). Well I climbed on this beast and started slow, first I made it to 3 minutes, then 7, then 10, at 18 minutes I thought I would give in, but NOPE, not today boys and girls I went the full 20 minutes I set out to do!!!
Let me tell you how freaking proud I was of ME! After I snapped these snazzy pics, I climbed off that beast and wobbled the the parking lot, where I cried! Oh yeah, but it wasn't Weepy Me that was crying. It was I AM A FREAKING ROCK STAR me! After I updated my FB status, texted my girls and drank my liter of water I drove home, with a feeling like no other. I CAN DO THIS. I AM DOING THIS.

You still have time to enter into my giveaway for some yummy Mixed Berry Green Tea. Only two entries so far. Your chances are freaking GOOD! LOL