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Monday, August 31, 2009

Well Good Golly it's Been awhile!

I bet you thought I jumped ship didn't yah? Naaaa....Last week was close out week, need I say more! I love my paycheck the first week of the month but this week nearly kills me!

I do have to say I am EXTREMELY proud of myself. Let me tell you why. I clocked 79 hours this week (Oh Me Gee). And I had some crazy obstacles that I had to cross. Not only the crazy hours. But eating out every night (yeah I'm NOT kidding). Not only did I manage to say on plan, counted and planed every bite (thank you very much), but I also went to Curves 3 times this week too. Oh yeah baby, I did that! And fit in a WW meeting too.

That's where my really good news comes in, I am down 3.2 bringing my total to 9.8. Wooooooohooooooo Soooooo close to being another 5lb star. But no worries I will get that next week. My new buddy had an amazing weigh in too, and we are tied in total pounds. WTG K!

I have learned so much about myself this past week. I have learned that I DO have will power. All these years I said I didn't have any, I just didn't know how to connect with it. I am in the zone, I don't look too far into the future, I just tackle one day at a time. I find that I feel more in control this way. I feel more in control than ever before. I pray that I can keep this feeling and not let anyone or anything take it away from me.

I have also learned that Weight Watcher math SUCKS! Let me quickly explain why, lets say you are going to eat a 1 point Sugar Free pudding cup (they are sooooo yummy) it's one point. But lets say you are really craving it and want to eat 2. Well if you eat both of them you are now up to 2.5 points. I know right! What the heck? I was always taught that 1 + 1=2, but not in WW world. I learned this the hard way, by just tracking in a note book, and not online with E-tools. I had been eating at least 5-10 points a day OVER. I know it didn't really hinder my weight loss yet, but I want to do this correctly so that I am in control of how things go.

Oh and I also learned that you actually have mussels in your stomach. Yeah! I know...I can't imagine what they look like under all this wiggle, but I know when I push extra hard at Curves like I did last week I can feel them in there. I can't wait to see what they really look like. So exciting for me. I also noticed Friday that a couple of the machines weren't so hard to get out of as they were before. I didn't totally feel like a bug on my back trying to get out of them! You know that feeling, where you can't move you are just flapping around like a fish outta water. Yeah that's normally me. That made me feel really good.

I am hoping to add my Walk Away the pounds DVD this week, on the days that I don't go to Curves. I freaking HATE walking but at least this is inside and I can blow the fan on me.

I think that pretty much catches me up till now. I will not be posting what I ate every day from now on. I am keeping track online and it seems to be working better for me. I will be posting if I try something new or eat something extra yummy.

Quote for the day: If nothing changes, Nothing changes.

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Parents, and fish, and shopping OH MY!

Well this weekend was tons of fun. It was nice to have my parents in. Saturday David and my dad fished all day. From the sounds of it the water was a little bit rough, thank gawd I stayed on land. They came home with a boat full of fish so all in all I think it was worth it. Mom and I shopped a little bit, we had Kayla with us and we went to eat at Subway. Mmmm....Subway eat fresh. Sunday David and Dad took the kids tubing, I have been feeling kinda crappy so I didn't want to go. So of course Mom and I went shopping again! I don't know what it is about us two, but we can shop, even when the two of us have NO money.

I didn't really track this weekend, but I was very good, and mindful of what I ate. I'm sure that I stayed within my points and maybe even under on Sunday. I was sad to see the weekend end. I miss spending time with my mom. And I think my dad really enjoyed the weekend too. He gave David his seal of approval on his boat. So that's good.

This week is close out week at work AKA HELL week. We work until usually 12 every night then turn around and be back at 8 to do it all again. Blech. I did manage to get my Curves in yesterday tho. I took my lunch at 4:00 and went and worked out and was back here by 5:00. I could never do that during the day at lunch. I sweat way too much, it was a good thing that there was only a few of us left at work. I know I looked like ewww.

A couple of the gals at work are working WW with me. I'm so excited. I love all the support they are giving me, and its nice to be able to talk about what is so important to me right now. I can't wait until we are all hot mama's. Well hot healthy mama's! (because we are already hot)

What I ate yesterday:
Breakfast Burritos-10
Healthy Choice Dinner-5
Rice Cakes-4
Animal Crackers-2
Sub Sammich-10

30 minute Curve work out (woot!)
Total 40 Points

Thursday, August 20, 2009

You Gonna Eat That?

I hate how some times you feel like you are on the right track, then you realize that you should have taken that last left turn! I had a really good week, I added exercise 3 times a week, been getting all my healthy food guidelines in, but still found myself falling short in my points a couple nights this week. Well my weight loss showed it. I was down 1.2 lbs this week. Don't get me wrong that is very good, I was just hoping for a bigger number. I think all of the components mashed all together and got all messed up. Sooooooooooooo, this week one of my mini goals is to weigh and measure everything with my digital scale. Two do Curves 3 times this week (that's going to be very hard with it being close out week). And my 3rd goal is to use the check marks in my food tracker to make for certain that I am getting those HF in.

I connected with a very sweet gal at my WW meeting tonight. She started the same night I did and we have chatted a couple times in the past 2 weeks. Tonight we kinda hit it off. We have a lot in common and I'm looking forward to getting to know her better and cheering her on, on her journey too!

My parents are coming for the weekend this weekend. I am looking forward to spending some time with my mom. David and my dad are going fishing Saturday and we have the whole day together. We will probably take the kids tubing Sunday. I pray that I can have the will power to stick to the program.

What I ate today:
Two breakfast burritos-8
Two Bagel Sammichs-8
Rice Cakes-3
Two Apples-4
Three Chicken Legs-6
Baked Potato with broccoli and cheese-5
Sweet Spicy Sauce-2
WW Ice Cream-2

Total Points-40

Quote for today:
Some day you will be amazing.

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Day from Hell....Times 428

Okay yesterday just sucked major ass.

There is not a nicer way to put it at all. Some times working with David really has it's downs. Because if either he or I are in a bad mood, we can't just NOT be around each other. I mean we work together, what am I gonna do hide in the bathroom all freaking day? Yeah that's what I mean. Anyways, I'm not really sure who's mood set the day off but it was off. And I do me OFF. I really hate days like that so much. So I go and pick up Kayla, yesterday was the day that she went to get her drivers license. Well that went horribly wrong, UG! So now I have another freaking mood in the mix. So she didn't pass, I'm pretty sure it was nerves, I will take her back tomorrow to try it again. Tomorrow will be a better day. It has GOT to be. So needless to say, the Donald house was NOT a place you wanted to be last night, there was a lot of hollering, a lot of crying, a lot of attitudes flying. And this morning we have come to this conclusion.....Micheal is the ONLY person in the family that is not in need of some sort of mental medication. And that's all I am gonna say about that.

Today was much better, still kinda awkward at work with David and I the first half of the day, I was determined NOT to speak. Well crap who am I kidding, I we freaking WORK together. So its all over and we are all hunky dorey and fine.

Back to me, because lets face it, that's the real reason you are here anyways. LOL I went to Curves tonight! Wooooooooot, I meet my mini goal that I set for myself worked out 3 times this week. Go me! Go Me! I hope that the scale is nice to me tomorrow night. I am already feeling better. I know I can do this! I just know it.

What I ate yesterday:
Egg rolls-8
Carrots and dressing-0
Chicken Breast-6
Salad Dressing-0
WW Ice Cream-2

Total Points for the day: 41 points Used 2 Flex Points

What I ate today:
Rice Cake-1
Green Beans-3
Popeye's Chicken Breast-7
Popeye's Wings (2)-8
Ground Meat-3
WW Ice Cream-2

Total Points- 36 Worked out at Curves for 30 minutes(woot!)

Monday, August 17, 2009

Happy Monday Yall!

Today was a pretty good day. It wasn't as stressful as most Monday's usually are. That was a great break! I planned my meals out for the day. And I think I was pretty happy with that. I will try and do that more often. I had a great lunch, I found some small bagels that are so yummy for 2 points, a wedge of laughing cow cheese, and two Canadian bacon slices. It was yummy with a capitol Y.

I went to Curves again today. I am so proud of myself. My goal for this week is two go 3 times (I'm counting my weeks Thursday to Thursday since those are the days I weigh in). Two down one more to go. I really love the way I feel when I finish. Like I have
accomplished something. I look forward to the next time already.

I am really feeling good about myself. I know its only been 11 days, but I am feeling strong that this time I can do this. I can feel my body changing already. It can only get better from here.

What I ate Today:
Two breakfast burritos
-2 tortillas-2
-1 veggie
-egg beaters-2
Crackers and Cheese-4
Two bagel
Egg rolls-14

Total Points-37

Sunday, August 16, 2009

I love it when I sweat so hard my hair gets wet.

Oh yeah you heard me. That was me that said that. I had to go grocery shopping today since yesterday was a total bust. So Kayla and I got up and were going to go super early. Well David had different plans. He needed to get the truck fixed and we had to run and get the parts first. I let Kayla drive home from Rouses and she did great! She is supposed to get her license tomorrow. Watch out world here she comes LOL Anyways we finally got to Wal-Mart and I got my hair cut before we shopped. Geeze Wal-Mart on a Sunday. That is just full of wrong things. Finally got done and got it home now to unpack the stuff. Talk about a work out.

Our grass guy quit on us after doing our grass for over 2 years. He is now teaching at the High School. Good for him. Not so good for us. I found him by accident, I don't even know where to look for another guy. So we borrowed J and T's lawn mower. I told David that I would mow it. Well I mowed just a
litte less than half. David actually helped me alot. Baby steps people! The old me would have strained a mussel laughing at the thought of mowing the damn grass. I think we will save the money we pay the grass guy and I'll do it. I hope that I can build myself up and do it all soon.

Tomorrow is Monday.
Blech. The only good thing is that its my Curves day. Yippy. This weekend I kinda slacked on my eating. I know that is NOT a good think. With all the exercise I did I should have actually ate more than my normal points. I will have to make it a point to eat all of them this week, and maybe some flex to make up for it.

What I ate today:
Carrots and Cucumber Salad-4.5
Cracker Jacks-2
Chicken Breast Tenderloins-9
Shake and Bake-1
Tuna Sandwich-2
Spaghetti Squash-1
Parm Cheese-2

Total Points 31

Saturday, August 15, 2009

Curves is the only thing that went right!

Well today started out great. I dropped Kayla off at her driving class. (which she passed with a 100...You go Girl), and I headed to Curves. I got my work out in and had some time to kill. Headed to Walgreen's and picked up a few school supplies that the kids still needed. Pick up Kayla and went to the produce stand with T and J. On the way back and I called David and he said I need you to kind hurry and get back, I think Micheal may have broke his finger. He needs to go to the hospital. So I get my car and fly to the boat landing and pick Micheal up. His hand is like triple the size and already turning blue. Sheesh. So off we went to the ER 4 hours later and we are home. He has a splint on his hand and has to keep it iced for 24 hours. What totally sucks is that he just made first chair in band. Now he can't even play. I will be calling the school and seeing whats going to happen with that. Lordy B. All that and I haven't even gotten my grocery shopping done yet. So much for a laid back Sunday.

What I ate today:
Sweet and Salty Bar-2
String Cheese-2
100 Calorie Pack-2
KFC Grilled Breast-4
KFC Grilled Thigh-3
Popeye's Breast-7
Popeye's Wing-4
Pecan Crackers-12
Green Beans-4

Total Points-40
30 Minute work out at Curves.

His Name was Chip

Dunk Time-Sir Scrapalot Designs

My WW leader read a poem Thursday that I thought was so cute. I just had to make a page with it. Heading to Curves, see you when I get home.

Friday, August 14, 2009

Friday Night Sushi

TGIF People! I can't stress that enough. Geeze. I am very upset. I had every intention of going to Curves tonight after work, well of course a repeat of last night BUT WORSE. Nothing bothers me more, than when I have plans to have to work late. I totally get having to do it, but it seems the only time I have to is when I have other plans. So I didn't get out of work until 6:30. Curves closes at 7pm so it was a no go tonight. But I promise to be there right after I drop Kayla off at driving school in the morning. David and Micheal are going fishing, so after Curves I have the day to myself. I was going to go grocery shopping but I think I will come home and make some tiles and resin pieces. :)

David took me out for Sushi to celebrate my loss last night. We also had some celebrating for Micheal too. He came home today to tell us he has made first chair in band! WooooooooHooooooooo! I am so proud of him. He is so talented. Must take after his momma! LOL

Better get going. I want to plan my meals for the next week so that I don't over spend at the grocery store tomorrow. And I'm BEAT!

What I ate today:
Rice Cakes-5
WW Dinner-8
Sugar Free Pudding-0
FF Dressing-0
Samurai Sauce-4
Total Points 35

Thursday, August 13, 2009

Winner! Winner Chicken Dinner.

Well tonight was my first weigh in, and I almost didn't freaking make it! Of course I had to be some where so the bottom fell out at work. Of course at 4:55 something needed to be done YESTERDAY. No pressure at all, and of course everything I touched went to crap. At one point in my panic I even deleted the whole freaking job! Oh yeah I'm that girl. Anyways. Finally got done and flew out the door to my meeting. Got there in plenty of time. Phew! So it got to be my turn and oh yeah baby I'm a winner. 5.4 Pounds. GO ME! I am so happy. This week was really good, I hope I have many many more like it.

I even seen two girls that were at Curves last night there. And one of them has lost 15 pounds already. That is awesome! Hopefully that will be something to push me to go more. It's so nice to have others that are on the same page as you.

I am looking forward to tomorrow's Curves visit.

What I ate today:
Two Veggie Sausages-4
Two Slices Bread-2
Cracker Jacks-2
Two Bagels-2
Cream Cheese-2
Turkey Pepperoni-2
Pork Chop-4
100 Calorie Pack-2
Broccoli Cheese-2

Total-44 Points

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Curves Didn't Kill Me!

Not that I really thought it would. LOL But you know just in case there was ever a doubt, it won't kill you. I makes you sweat like you are about to...but just when you are on the brink of falling over it lets you go home. And let me just tell you...I feel fan-freaking-tastic! I totally forgot how good I feel when I get done. Like I accomplished something. I am actually looking forward to Friday when I go back. I kinda snuck on the scale while I was there, I know, I know but I was just checking. I won't post here lets just say I am very excited about going to WW and weighing in. I have stayed OP all week and I wrote every bite.

Speaking of that. This week has been a week of first for me. This is the first time that I went to WW on a Thursday and started OP the very next day. Usually I wait to 'start fresh on Monday'. I am so proud of myself for that one. Also this is the first time in YEARS that I actually wrote every single bite I took. I even kept track over the weekend. GO ME!!! Okay heading to bed. I want tomorrow night to hurry up and get here.

What I ate today:
Two Veggie Sausage Patties-4
Two Slices of Bread-2
Turkey Pepperoni-2
Two Bagels-2
FF Cream Cheese-2
Yogurt with Cinnabar-5
Salad Dressing-2
Pork Chop-4
WW Ice Cream-1

30 Minute Work out at Curves
Total 39

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Egg Roll Heaven...Stuffed to the Gills.

Today was a pretty good day. It went by pretty fast and I had the most wonderful dinner. I was clicking around Hungry Girl's web site and found a recipe for some Egg Rolls, the recipe sounded really easy so I copied it to try for later. Well David cooked Tator Tot Casserole for dinner and I knew I should stay away from that so I went after I picked up Kayla from school to get the stuff I needed to make them and a couple other simple recipes I found on her awesome site.

Here is the recipe:
6 large square egg roll wrappers (found in the refrigerated section of the supermarket with the other Asian items)
4 cups (about half of a 12-oz. bag) dry coleslaw mix
One 6-oz. can (4 oz. drained) tiny shrimp, drained
1/2 cup canned water chestnuts, drained and sliced into strips
1/4 cup bean sprouts, chopped
2 scallions, chopped
1 stalk celery, thinly sliced width wise
2 tbsp. light or low-sodium soy sauce
1 tsp. crushed garlic
1/4 tsp. ground ginger
1/8 tsp. salt
dash pepper
Optional: sweet & sour sauce, for dipping

Preheat oven to 375 degrees.

Place slaw mix in a microwave-safe bowl with 2 tbsp. of water, cover, and microwave for 2 minutes. Drain any excess water, and transfer slaw mix to a large bowl. Add all other ingredients except for the wrappers, mix well, and set aside. Prepare a large baking sheet by spraying it lightly with nonstick spray.

Evenly distribute about 1/2 cup of the mixture onto each wrapper, in a row a little below the center. Moisten all four edges of each wrapper by dabbing your fingers in water and going over the edges smoothly.

Repeat process with remaining wrappers and filling, making sure you have a clean, dry surface each time.

Spray the tops of the egg rolls with nonstick spray. Bake in the oven for 25 - 30 minutes, until golden brown. Allow to cool slightly.


These things were AWESOME. I put in all the ingredients over on the WW site recipe builder just to make sure how many points it was, it was 10 points total. So I ate every single one of them. I am so stuffed but dang they were good. They were very easy to make too.

I got such nice emails from my family today about my blog. They always support me so much. I really hope that this time I can do this and not disappoint them. Who know by the next time we all get together we may need name tags! LOL

Well tomorrow is the big day. I head back to Curves. I am looking forward to it, and I'm dreading it. I know I love the way it makes me feel, and I KNOW I need it, I just don't like the extremely young girl they have working the counter in the evenings. Don't get me wrong, shes plenty nice enough, but I am just not comfortable with myself let alone to go in there in front of a 19 year old that looks like she could use a doughnut or 5. But I am gonna put that away and get in there and sweat my hiney off. Sweat some of this fat off. Wish me luck.

What I ate today:
Four Eggs-8
Rice Cakes (the whole freaking bag)-10
Egg Rolls-10

WW Ice Cream-1
Total 33

Monday, August 10, 2009

Monday Madness!

Monday's always suck at work. There are a million and one things to to, and a million and one people to do them for. No one needs anything until its time for me to do payroll. Besides being a crappy day like any other Monday, it was a great day for being OP. I did not eat eggs for breakfast and I could totally tell. They seem to fill me up for longer. I think I will make sure to have them every day. I ate Weight Control Oatmeal and a cup of D's fruit salad. Tomorrow will be a better day for sure. I went to Curves and got weighed and measured. Blech that was NOT fun. According to the print out, I have gained 30 freaking pounds since the last time I was there which was January of 2007. Whatever. All that matters is that today I am on track and tomorrow I will be too. I start back at Curves on Wednesday. I really am looking forward to it. It kicks my butt but it makes me feel good when I'm done.

Here is what I ate for the past two days:
Three Eggs -6
Cracker Jacks-2
Rice Cakes-3
Corn on the Cob-4
Chicken Sausage-4
Salad Dressing-1
WW Ice Cream-1
Fruit Salad:8

Total for the Day:40

Fruit Salad-4
Pork Roast-8
WW Ice Cream-2

Total for the Day:39

Sunday, August 9, 2009

Take Control! Get a hold of your life. DO IT NOW!

Okay, I've heard it said before. Hitting rock bottom. This has got to be what that feels like. What have I done to myself? Why the hell have I let myself get this way? How many times have I said I am fat and happy? Oh please! Even I can't believe that anymore. I pray to god that this is the time. I fear if it's not, I will be dead by the time I am 40. How can I know that I am not healthy, but do nothing about it? How can I continue to to be a disappointment to myself and my family? Please give me the strength I need to do this, this time. Please.

Starting Stats:
Waist-59 1/4
Bust-54 1/2
L-Thigh-25 1/2

Well today was good. I told many people at work that I am working on me. The more that know the more accountable that will make me. I really would love to look back on this day and say it was the first day of the rest my life. T and J are on this journey with me. That will really help me at work. But I can not depend on other people. I have to depend on me. David has always been a huge supporter of mine. I can't wait to look into his eyes and show him that I am not a total failure, and that I can finish what I start for once in my life. Please god let me do this.

What I ate today:
Four scrambled eggs with salsa-8
Popecorn shrimp-6
Green beans-0
-boiled egg-1
-salad dressing-3
100 Calorie Pack-2

Total 42 points
Target Points 40
Used 2 Flex Points

Today was a crazy day. The kids start school Tuesday so we had tons of running to do. Micheal got his new glasses today, uniforms ect. Kayla needed new pants they both needed shoes. Wow. So much to do so little time to plan. I have been craving Sushi, I have been reading and it seems very point friendly. It was so good. After all that shopping we came home and then I went back to grocery shop. I feel alot better with a stocked pantry and everything I need to succed at my finger tips. I can not set myself up for failure again. I must do this to be successful. I have what I need to get me through this week. I am doing this. I feel in control.

What I ate today:
Two Spring rolls-6
Miso Soup-2
WW Ice Cream-2
Rice Cakes-2
Turkey Meat-4
Two Torillias-2
Fruit Salad
WW Ice Cream-2

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